Apprehensive - Concert - Brando - Army Surplus - Past week
I?m feeling really quite apprehensive, and I don?t know why! It?s been quite a good week really, Friday I had a job to Shaftsbury Avenue, London, got back about 16:45, and had the night off from Walkers to go to the Classic FM concert at the DeMontfort Hall ? really was very good, much impressed.
Marlon Brando died on Friday ? 2nd July, I was only reading last weekend that he has been living off quite limited means ? less than ?1000 a week, in quite a small villa in California ? he was 80 years old.
Yesterday ? Saturday I went to the Army Surplus store I came across a couple of weeks ago near Worchester, bough some boots, a small ruck sack and various other bits. In the late afternoon I took Peggy along the canal ? to break the boots in, took me just over two hours so I assume I we went about fice ? six miles ? very nice ? maybe that is why I?m feeling apprehensive ? because I have to get back to work in the morning?
Anyway last night I had a good time in the Westcotes, mainly talking to Athur, and this morning Peggy and I went for another walk from near Pearl Arbour to near the Hope and Anchor ? round to Wanlip and back ? took about two and a half hours, so I think it must have been about seven miles, when I got back I had a --- have ? a blister on my left foot!! Haven?t walked so far for years!! Even Peggy was limping a bit. Got thr Crows Nest about 13:10 ? Charlie, Barry and Jimmy were there, later Naz came in. I stayed on with Naz and Jimmy until about 16:15!! ? longer than I had expected ? at least I was only drinking Guinness and Coke mixed. A cou0ple of people gave Peggy large portions of their Sunday lunch so she was happy and is now sleeping soundly up stairs.
This afternoon Federa won the men?s title at Wimbledon, and Schumacker won the French Grand Prix ? again ? at the moment the Euro finals are taking place in Portugal between Portugal and Greece, I?m not going to watch it ? thinking of nipping out for a quick couple of pints, if I can walk ok ? there are quite a few things I haven?t done that I had intended to do this weekens, and I?m not going to get them done now
The word at Walkers is thar Greg has been offered a job at Cadbury?s on ?1000 a week plus a company car - rumour is he will leave in August, but he is denying it all at the moment ? I think it is true though.
I?m on Peeler training with Trevor all next week, not looking forward to it really, and in about three weeks time I will have to take the Optimisation assessment ? not looking forward to that either!! Don?t think I will go out again today ? may carry on and watch some more of Schindlers List ? Finished watching the Kray?s film this afternoon ? quite brutal.
Weather wise it?s been quite rainy the past week or so, but on the whole quite warm, makes a difference with the long days.
Have to be up early in the morning ? have a doctors appointment at 07:15
2004-07-11 18:03:40 (GMT)
Past Week
Tuesday 6th July - Annoyed with myself - lost a delivery note - only a local Odd Bins job, but the first time I have done this - think I may have lost it in Tesco's, but having said that I may yet find it before Friday. Thought about making a new one out but would mean forging the signatures - not worth the risk, and I don't want to experience the sense of guilt that would inevitably come with such an action.
Tonight is my first night on Peeler training with Trev - its 03:45 now - going ok so far.
Have been reading chapter five of Alice Bailey very interesting - makes a huge difference being able to read on the iPaq.
I think I may have realised some more the deeper significance of overcoming the lower nature so that the higher can be 'born'. The lower doesn't go away , but is
subjugated by the higher, I feel very strongly tonight that in achieving this, a door is opened and one realises the true difference, the absolute reality of the higher mind. Why wait another fifty years or so before accepting this fact? Surely to do that after realising the truth would indeed be sinful?
Since reading JJ's recent post's I feel very strongly about the merits of truthfulness - again having realised the knowledge there is a clear duty to comply with the best of one's ability.
I have been feeling very un easy the past week or so about the un truth I told on my application for house insurance - this seems to be being challenged, so I?m in a bit of a dilemma on what to actually say, without compounding one un truth with another - think I will say I have decided to continue with HSBC, which is correct, may lose the premium I have paid, But will have to wait and see.
Mmm knowledge brings added responsibilities, but it would be wrong to stand still, need to move on.
Phil. is still on the sick, must be nearly three weeks now - don't know if it's genuine or not, must say I have my doubts. Pete Horne has been off sick all this week, looks like he has hem ridged a blood vessel in his knee. Canteen Sue is, I think on her third week of sickness, Alan says she may be Back next week. He said she's off with a virus, but I have my doubts, she indicated a few weeks ago that she was suffering quite badly with PMT?
I seem to have been in the canteen most of the night! Had to change tables so it doesn't look like I?ve been here so long!
I received the Kung Fu DVD's I?d ordered from Amazon on Monday. They have just been realised, quite looking forward to see them, hopefully I can fit some in at the weekend, but I have to move some furniture for Milly and Dan, so I might not have a lot of time, but then again that's nothing new of late.
Wednesday 7th July - Ignored two calls from Roadrunners today -- one about 07:15 and another this evening about 19:15, feel a bit guilty but I needed the sleep! Had a job to Surrey today, about 125 miles - was enough for me.
Received a second letter from Colonnade re the house insurance proposal, will have to send them a letter at the weekend saying I?ve changed my mind.
Saw Simon [Brookes] tonight, he was doing some MP2 training. Simon had seen Eddie Aitkenhead at the factory today, probably here for an interview for the Initial job - have a feeling he may get it if Eric decides not to take up the offer. Simon reckons word on days is that Greg is going to Mars and not Cadburys.
Freda called me this afternoon, said Husain is out every night until five or six in the morning, and is on the phone or internet nearly all the time. He doesn't seem that interested in getting a job just seems to be heavily into the Gay scene. Suggested she start charging him, board. Freda has heard that Graham Simpson is now working in Mexico, and has split from his wife and is now living with a 24 year old Malaysian.
Tonight is the second night this week that I?ve developed a bad head ache - unusual for me .Fortunately with me 'working- with Trevor on the Peelers I?ve spent most of the week in the canteen!
In the news today the Guardian reports on its front page that the Government has not ruled out future investment in additional, Nuclear power plants, which is some good news. The report states that pressure is being applied from the US.
There is some wet windy, cool weather due tonight - it's been quite poor the past few weeks, although mild, and there is little sign of change. When I was in Surrey today I saw a car that had been hit by a falling tree, due to the high winds.
I have been reading chapter five from Alice Bailey - at times I feel a real sense that some 'realisation' is right there in front of me - the absolute reality of God the father - is so very close - I feel I just have to make one more effort - just take that one remaining step - and I will realise I?ve made a huge step forward. It's right here - in front of me - all the time, except sometimes I can 'feel' it more than others. The time it recedes is when the personality dominates - which is what AAB is communicating - can I now take that next step? Commit myself to, God and his plan? - My feeling is that when looked at another way - how can I not? -, I can stand still with the possibility of drifting back wards, or I can take the step. Turning away, to a new direction seems an impossible idea - the danger I feel lies in inertia.
Thursday 8th July Think I missed another early call from Roadrunners -, told them later I?d been at Walker's until around 3am. Only had a couple of small jobs today. With last weeks invoice data was a note stating only two drivers last week had completed POD forms correctly in respect of entering the number of items delivered - interesting thing was that a hand written note saying 2nd copy was added - just for future reference it?s the first note of this kind I have received. I don't point out or complain to them, when they give me wrong address's or send me miles to collect a job that costs me a lot of dead time. Swings and round abouts. At the moment I?ve decided to send my invoice data in full this week and ignore the fact I?m a receipt sort - sure it will be mentioned next week, but I don't feel like forging another one, and I don't feel like admitting I lost it - so much for my intention of maintaining the truth! I wonder if it?s worth getting a copier so I can keep my own records of POD's? - hasn't been necessary to date but maybe worth considering.
Think I learnt about ?340 with Roadrunners last week - not to bad - maybe I can bank ?1000 a month? - That would make a big difference for me over the next one to two years. Can't bank on it yet though - too unpredictable - I just do what they ask - on the whole and don't complain.
I returned from Melton Mowbray this afternoon via Borough - must bear it in mind for a place to go walking one weekend.
The weather has been terrible today, more like winter than summer - gales and string winds - no immediate sign of summer returning.
Trevor gave me some details tonight of a camp site - looks quite good and not to far away -, near Nuneaton I think?
I'm really looking forward to my weekend walks - the blister is all but gone and I?m raring to go!
Sat in the peeler area at the moment - Trev is dozing on the Fork Lift! -Haven?t done more than 10 minutes work yet - its 02:27! Trev has just woken up and gone off, so I?ve taken over the seat in the Fork Lift.
Had a good sleep today - as much as I would have been able to take even if I wasn't working - must have had about 6- 6.5 hours - I?m wide awake now and will have trouble sleeping for more than an hour or so in the morning.
Still haven't called Milly back about the weekend - keep putting it off, but will have to do it today.
Freda was talking to me in the Canteen Thursday morning - telling me about her feelings towards Husain - I told her not to go too far and give up on him - she?s told him he can't keep coming in at five o'clock in the morning. Strangely he still denies to her he's Gay, and still talks about getting married - maybe he is bi-sexual. But it would be an issue that needed addressing at some time. I just hope he doesn't find himself in a situation he can't handle or one that gives him a lot of unnecessary pain - Freda can be so selfish most of the time, she will easily loose her temper with him, and either tell him to leave home or leave him totally to his own devices.
Seems more than a week ago that I went to the DeMont - I?m still feeling quite uneasy, but not sure why? Will have to catch up on a few outstanding items this weekend - Colonnade and the electricity reading for a start - really must try and get up earlier on Saturday.
Had an automated e-mail Thursday afternoon from Amazon, saying my Alice Bailey books have been dispatched, so should be here Friday or Saturday - I?m a bit disappointed with how long they have taken - nearly two weeks when they advertised 24 hour despatch.
The appeal hear of Sean Jenkins, the ex deputy headmaster jailed a few years ago for killing his step daughter - his wife testified Wednesday against him, but one of his daughters was more supportive the other day. I think he may be innocent, but not so sure that will be the verdict.
John Drake asked me where Phil was tonight, told him he was on the sick, he said he'd heard Phil was joining the Police. Surprised Phil let it out so much.
I've just been working out how soon I can free myself of unnecessary debt - if it currently stands at ?13000 and I have ?4000 savings, if I can bank ?150 a week from my courier work then I should be able to clear it in 60 months, or by September 2005. That doesn't take into account my current payments or the fact I would be unlikely to use every penny up and leave no reserve, but it is of some comfort to think in just over twelve months time I could, at least on paper be clear of the shackles of this terrible debt. Of course by that time I will have to seriously start thinking about replacing the van. This would probably be by summer 2006 at the latest, but the thought of being on the positive side of debt in about twelve months time is quite up lifting -- I only hope it proves to be accurate.
I think JJ was quite right when he compared modern day debt with slavery. It really can take over ones life, and be so debilitating, a cause of much distress and even ill health.
Its 05:23, Friday morning, sat on the Fork Lift, have hardly done a thing all night, haven't seen Trev for about three hours! Its light now, but a lit duller than it would be normally, quite cold, a lot of water on the ground from the recent rains, hope I don't get a courier job until after ten. Peggy makes me smile, she?s so good really, but I?m sure she isn't that keen on being in the van all day!, I?ve explained to her, its her 'work' during the day to go with me, but she still tries to make out she hasn't heard me when I call her! I would feel very guilty if I had to leave her at home all day and all night.
05:32 - another ten minutes and I?ll head for the canteen; Freda will be here about 5:50.
05:43 -- looking a bit brighter out - off to the canteen.
Sunday 11th July
18:35 ? Feeling quite uneasy again ? think it is the time of the week ? to close to going back to work!
Actually I?m fairly up to date on what I set my self to do this weekend ? only thing I haven?t done yet is the letter to Collonade and my long walk!
Saw Arthur in the Westcotes last night ? interesting night. There is something about Martin the land lord I don?t quite trust ? can?t put my finger on it though I suspect he over charges at times. Last week Charlie bought me a drink, he didn?t tell me until I?d been to the bar after Martin had charged me for it, but I?ve had this feeling for some time now.
Saw Barry, Charlie and Jimmy in the CN at lunch time today ? sounded like Jimmy had been in the past three days, he seems to have sorted out his finances, at least to the point he can feel quite content with them ? he still owes me over a thousand pounds though ? don?t think I will ever see that.
Apparently the CN is getting a pretty bad reputation again ? quite a bit of violence and drug dealing going on. Bev?s son was in at lunch time, Jimmy said he had just come out of prison after serving two years, by just after one is was lying down on one of the couches, fast asleep ? very bad, and Bev didn?t seem to mind at all!
I just calculated my electricity bill ? I was very pleased ? and very surprised to find the estimated bill of ?64.31 is about right.
Think I will post this and go and have a walk ? may do a draft letter for Collonade but not print in out, Peggy seemed a bit quite at lunch time and she?s been asleep for the past two hours or so.
2004-07-18 19:56:19 (GMT)
Past Week
Monday 12th July Managed to collect the things Milly wants Steph to store for her until September |st when they return from Thailand - mostly a PC, stand and printer. Took them round to Steph's this evening only to have her ask me to store them!, so they are in Peggy's room. Steph said she and the kiddies are going to Wales camping for ten days starting next week.,Seemed a bit reluctant to talk about it - she said she doesn't get holidays - which I guess from her perspective is true. Rio is on the first week of his summer holiday, he's still being told off quite a bit by Steph - mainly for manners related incidents. Sure he will be a great credit to her in the future.
Only had one Roadrunner job today, that was to Stafford.
Saw Freda briefly when I clocked in tonight - she asked me to print her out directuons to,Skegness, so she can visit her friend in a caravan at the weekend. Then she said she could do with a lift!-,I told her 'no way' - but a few seconds later I said i'd consider it, if the weather is decent I might go camping in the area, may give me an incentive to,get my finger out!
I'm,on line one tonight -n23:08 - quite so far - heven't seen Greg yet. Bawa is her until 02:00 because Phil and Kevin are off. Battu is relieving me for breaks, Bawa is on line 5 plates. I still get the feeling that DP is a bit distant with me, know he's worried about all the assessments coming up.
Went in the canteen at 23:45 - Sue is still off sick, and was surprised to see Lol behind the till!
Greg it seem's is off tonight and tomorrow - Pearson and Payne are here, Geoff Marsden is on holiday and Pete Horne is on his second weeks sick leave.
Val came up to to me about 02:15 - she was very worried that Greg may be trying to set her up in order to sack her. I'm sure that isn't the case - at least at the moment.. Seem's that last Thursday Greg had given her some packets of Barbique to take home. He had made great play of saying hw had informed security that it was ok, and had arraigned to have the cameras 'pointing',the other way. Val didn't want anything to do with this and eventually dumped them in the compacter, having told Greg she had taken them - just to appease him, She felt he didn't believe her and was angry with her - she thought he was trying to set her up. Told her to let me know if she has any more problems.
Tuesday 13th 22:22 - Had two courier jobs today, one from the bone bank to the General hospital and a long one to Bristol. Took,me a bit longer than I would expect since I had two different address's, both of which were inaccurate.. Quite a nice day weather wise though. U got back about 16:40, just nice, but was woken up three times from just before six by Roadrunners - didn't answer them, but called the out of hours number about 21:45 on my way into,Walker's - said i'd been to the cinema and had just seen the missed calls, think it was Dean who said it was too late now but ok.
Collonade called whilst on my way back from Bristol, left a message the second time saying they wanted to clarify a couple of points on the Home insurance proposal - getting annoyed with them since I dropped a letter through their door Sunday evening saying that since they had clearly indicated they had lost the proposal several weeks ago, I had decided to renew with HSBC, also asked them to reply to my letter of June 13th? I'm sure they deliberately ignore requests that don't suit them!
I'm on line one again - line five is on a boil out with Satnam and Christine and Battu is on line four - DP is relieving us both. DP still seems a bit off with me, was passing 'side',comments recently about me becoming a Mantech.
Freda gave me the directions she has for Skegness at ten. I said i'd print out the route. She called me this morning, still 'hinting' she would prefer me to take her. I am tempted since it will motivate me to go camping. The way I'm going at the moment I won't get away at all this summer! Looks like the weather forecast is for cloud and showers. The more I think about it the more I think I should go.
Feeling quite un easy again - not sure why - sometimes more than others. I think I feel a dis harmony within - perhaps a sign of something I shoud face, or maybe change a way of looking at some things? I've started reading the Secret Doctrine by Blavatsky - thiink this helps me view things in a better perspective. I have noticed over the years that I can often become more relaxed in a detatched way whilst at Walker's than elsewhere - I have noticed tthis again recently - I think I should make a renewed effort to carry such ab attitude to other parts of my life. When a problem arises I quickly revert to reacting in a way that is predictable, but more importantly a way I do not like, I would like to remain more detatched at moments of stress. Of course my inspiration for such an attitude comes on the whole from what I read, JJ, Blavasky etc, and also in what I view, like the old Kung Fu series, although this would feel a bit embarrassing to admit openly. I'm feeling a' bit' better now -- is that a direct result
of writing it down?,
Val has been to see me again, she's still quite worried about loosing her job through Greg. Told her if she ever wants or has to go in the office over the matter I don?t mind going in with her - don't think she has a big problem, but the thing is she thinks she has.
JJ has been talking about the word 'change' recently - it also came up as a key word in the early chapters of the Secret Doctrine. Provides a lot to consider. I would like to preserve the way I m, but i'm sure I woukd have thought much the same in a previous incarnation so I think although it seem's to go against one's instinct, change / movement is to be embraced - even if change brings pain, surely it should be accepted if it is unavoidable and work for a more positive change further on. See I know the theory! its the application I have a problem with! I guess its my ego that gets in the way, that prevents me being more detatched, but I guess this realisation should be useful to me, if I put sufficient effort into changing myself. What do they say?, energy follow thought?
Have gone back onto my baked beans and fish diet! Added some olive oil today, hope I can get my collestrol level down - sure it was ok a couple of years back.
DP was telling me the amount credited to his bank was ?40 less than shown on his wage slip last week, will have to check mine.
At least its now Wednesday! - if I can get tthrough the next 24 hours with enough sleep I should be ok get through to the weekend. Its a ?19 million lottery roll over toiday - will have a go - if I get the time.
Ian has told me that Greg is back onn shift Wednesday Thursday and Sunday and is then off for two weeks, which is good news. Apparently he went home early last Friday, after which there was a fire alarm which required the fire brigade to attend, but there wasn't a manager on shift, so John Drake had to be called in from Leycroft!
Its 03:33 - shift going quite smoothly really, hope I can get at least a couple of hours sleep in the morning, I don't feel tired at all, but just like to get some in the 'bank'.
In the news, the result of the Sion Jenkins murder appeal will be announced on Friday. I think I re trial may be ordered. Later today the Butler enquiry into the inteligence leading up to the Iraqi war is to be published.
Checked my blood pressure yesterday, pleased that it was 'optimal' - must keep a closer eye on it.
I'm beginning to think, over the past week that if things continue on an 'even keal' then I might not take any holiday for some time yet. I don't think this will be the case, sinse I expect to take a week off in August, but that is by no means a certainty. If Steph had asked me I woukd have jumped at the chance to go camping with her and the kiddies next week in Wales, but that is not going to happen.
04:43 - Just been with Joshi in the canteen, he seem's quite happy with himself, even offered to help me with my courier work! Very nice of him, I must admit I feel a bit guilty about him being on the wet belt, sure it was Marriott taking revenge on him for supporting me a couple of years ago. If all goes well in a couple of years time I should be debt free - can hardly wait. Guess I am back to the subject of 'change' again.
05:39 - Just been talking to DP, he seem's a bit more afable. was saying he had to give a blood sample last week, and was quite sqemish about it! - also said Jutha's mum has broken her hip, following a couple of strokes - counting my blessings.
Still not feeling tired, but hope I can get a couple of hours in early.
I still wonder about the root cause of my un ease. Will have to look into it more deeply before long, maybe its my dweller, or at least partially - again I am back to affecting a change - that word again - is it going to be obe of JJ's 'keys'?
Wednesday 14th Been a strange day!. One of those that comes along totally enexpectedly. Left Walker's this morning and picked up a message from,Step, asking if I could possibly pick up Haley from ? and take her to Leicester train station. Steph then called me about 06:10, to say Haley was running away from Pauline for a few days. Asked if I could pick up Haley and give her ?40 from Steph for the train fair. I offered to take Haley to,Norwich, which is what happened in the end. Picked up Haley about 8:00, and took her to the main operating theater's - No 4 - to see Steph. Prior to this Haley rejected my offer to take her to Norwich, however after talking to Steph she semed quite happy with the idea. She was a bit distant for about the first two thirds of the journey, she was obviously quite upset, , but then we seemed to get on a lot better, discovering common ground. I dropped her off at Norwich train station at 11:30,, she had spoken to her friend Ollie who was going to meet her there. Although he was near by, I didn't actually see him, but felt fairly sure she was ok. I offered her the ?40 Steph had originally asked me to give her. At first she declined saying she had ?20 on her, but then said she wasn't sure, and accepted the money. She seemed certain she would return to Pauline's next week, after going to Steph's on Saturday. Pauline had called her before we had arrived at the General, clearly it was a difficult conversation, and it souded like Pauline had made threats to involve the authorities, Haley said she {Pauline] had given her permission to go, and since she had said where she was going and when she would be back, and she had her mobile phone, there was no great problem. Steph had tried to contact Pauline several times, but she wasn't at home, and her mobile was off, which was a bit strange. Haley thiught, probably correctly that Pauline had gone to Leicester trrain station to try and stop her leaving. Spoke to Steph about noon, to say i'd dropped Haley off, she asked if she had been met ok?, I had to say I hadn't witnessd that, but I was comfortable with the situation. I stopped off for a thirty minute snooze and a bite to eat and got back home about 15:50. Managed to get about four hours broken sleep, and here I am back on line one plate stand! Thinking about it now, it may have been worth recording Haley's conversation, just in case things went wrong and she disappeared -- too late now though.
I left a message withh Roadrunners saying I wouldn't be available todsy because my friend hsd a family crisis - I then called them frim the General at about 08:15 - think I spike to Dean, told him I was at the Operating Theater's at the General, gave him the impression it was a medical crisis. I always feel quite guilty when I say i'm not available - always think they will assume i'm off working for someone else. Oh well can't be helped, and it doesn't happen very often. I did get a phone call this evening from them, woke me uo, but I ignored it and managed to get back to sleep. At the moment I feel quite tired, possibly because I missed my morning snooze, and i've still got two days to go. Don't want to make another excuse to Roadrunners, but may have to make it clear to them I won't be available after six tomorrow evening.
The Boonit's are due to arrive at Steph's this evening, they are staying the night then Steph will drive tthem to Heathrow tonorrow afternoon for their flight to Thailand. Steph is to have the use off their People Carrier, ubtil they retun on August 31st. I've booked September 1st off from Roadrunners to help them move to their new house, might end up having some time off from Walker's at the same time.
Freda was brazenly creeping round me when I arrived saying she woukd be really pleased if I took her to Skegness on Saturday. I haven't committed myself yet, but I think I will go and stop at a camp site, after all that is what I intended doing this summer - don't really fancy Skegness, but I could try further up or down the ciast. I guess i'm about 98% sure I will go, and Freda said she wants to go Saturday morning and return Sunday afternoon or evening, which would suit me.
Well it's 23:30 - DP will relieve me for a break in fifteen minutes
Today has, in a fairly mild way felt quite stressful, and i'm not totally sure why? It could be just that something came up,that is a bit outside the norm, maybe I also picked up some of the stress from those around me, which may have the effect of magnifiing my own feelings - yes I think I am onto something here, but that isn't the whole reason. I think I am back to the thoughts on ''change', and the interplay of energy - in respect of people coming into contact with each other, especially in times of stress for one or the other, or iindeed both.
00:44 - DP seem's quite low again tonight, he was telling ne yesterday that Battu was trying to persuad him to put in for one of the two Mantech positions for the new snax line, Battu has asked me to apply to. DP is adament he is going as a GO on days at the end of the year, or early next. DP said Greg had seen them all in the office on Sunday night to recommend they alll apply for the Snax positions. He hasn't said anything to that effect to me yet. Either way I think I will take my chances with the Mantech position at the end of the year, it may not happen yet, although I must say I think the chances it will have increased to better than 50%..
Lol is still in the canteen covering Maureen.
05:07 - Have just completed JJ's latest chapter -6, and I'm also reading the Secret Doctrine - I don't feel its a coincidence that both seem to be refering to the same things, although terminoology is entirely different . It is a surprise to me that at times Blavatski illuminates JJ's writings when I woukd have expected it to be entirely the other way around. Am I indeed approaching a time when I will have the opportunity to become aware again of that which I feel has been lost to me? If only for a period of time. I still feel,in a previous birth I commited acts of great selfishness that make me un worthy of further knowledge yet. This may well be an illusion on my part, or at least only a partial truth. I will have to explore these thiughts further.
05:23 - Have been feeling quite tired, hope I can get a couple of hours sleep this morning.
On reflection I don't feel I did the right thing yesterday in leaving Hayley alone at Norwich station. I should have waited until she met her friend Olie, and not relied on her 'apparant' self confidence. I feel I let Steph down there, although I still feel she was correct in her asertions.
Just checked with George, looks like line one is scheduled to go off at 06:00, Friday, so hopefully I should have an easy night tonight - Thursday.
Greg passed me near line five at about 04:20, I was talking to Ian, Greg went right by me with no acknowledgement at all. the reason I note it is that it's the first time he has seen me since last Friday.
Just rememberd Simon was due on shift for a few hours last night, forgot to look out for him. 05?47 - Thirteen minutes left! I'll probably wake up more as soon as I leave.
Thursday 15th 22:12 -Quite a good day to date, managed to get over two hours sleep before Roadrunners called with a Vertis job to,Sainsburry's in central London. A nice trip, fascinating to see all the tourists going about their obligations. London really does have a 'different' feel about it, a different vibrancy. I was tempted to have a bit of a drive round, but I came back, passing Camden Market, which was in full flow, many colourful stalls spread out across the pavements. I actually got out of London quicker than usual, and I was back in Leicester by 15:45. I hoped that would be it for the day, but just as I was nearing Tudor Road I got three local jobs for Odd Bins, and then a Benckmark job. Managed to spin them out until 17:15, although I actually got home about 16::50,so managed to get at least another three hours sleep.
Told Freda tonight that I would take her to Skegness at the weekend, she seemed relieved and pleased. Told her I would pick her up about 11:00, so I guess we will arrive about 14:00. Probably be about 17:00 before I get set up somewhere. To be honest I don't feel much like going at the moment, but I think I will appreciate making the effort. Should be able to get my walking in along, or at least near to the shore. Saturday morning will be quite busy, getting ready, won't have time tomorrow to,sort much if anything out, so willl definitely hsve to ebsure i'm up by 09:00 at the latest.
Called Steph this afternoon when I was coming up the M1, was going to warn her of delays on the M25, but she didn't answer. I can only assume things are going ss well as can be expected re Haley. Guess the Boonits are at Heathrow getting ready to fly or are already in the air. Got a flavour change in abiut twenty minutes, gotta go. 22:57 - Just spoke to Greg, he says flavour change willl definitely now take place at midnight,have to change some ol - FFA is .17.
Just rememberd this is the weekend if this years Gathering, when I clear my debts it willl be a definite priority for me to attend, which might be possible in two years tine, if all goes well. I would be very nervous about going, at least that's how I think now, but i'm sure it would be a very worth while experience.. In the mean time I will have to do some more work for JJ, I guess the only thing I can do at the moment, given my time constraints is to continue my studies of Blavaski etc.
I wonder if I will get the opportunity to read this twenty years hence? The net is still quite new, so I would have doubts about the Diary site surviving, but I should have had the opportunity to transfer to a more secure site by then.
I'm not sure if it's a result of the current bad weather, but at times I think Autumn is just around the corner, followed by a long run up to,Christmas. Thinking of having a weeks holiday at the end of August, may get away for a few days, and also pull in the Boonit's house moving, then maybe a week at Christmas and a couple of weeks in March? One year I woukd like to visit Italy in the Spring, maybe i'll make it in 2006? I keep assuming I will have cleared my debts by then!
Friday 16th Steph called me about 06:10, spoke for nearly an hour. Updated me on Haley, seem's Pauline asked her Barister friend, Liz to act on her behalf and contact Step. Sounded like it was quite a tough conversation, but Steph seemed to come out of it on top. It looks like Pauline intends collecting Haley from Norwich her self on Saturday, probably to make sure Haley doesn't have contact with Steph, Steph did say she will be in Essex all day attending a wedding, but she would have made arrangements for Haley to gain access to the house if necessary. So it remains to be seen what the outcome will be. From,what Haley was telling me, she intends to move out once she reaches sixteen [January 31st] anyway I just hope things can run fairly smoothly until then. Steph's inly fear is if Pauline starts throwing accusations around that she isn't a fit mother herself.
It's just gone 19:00, i'm skiving, sat on the Peeler area of line two. Supposed to clean the Wash Units and Peelers but most of it was completed when I arrived. There is only Bryan Pearson on shift, so I hope it won't be too difficult to avoid getting another job!,
Furthest I went today was Nuneatton. Had an hours sleep this afternoon plus nearly two hours this morning, so i'm feeling ok - just hope I can get to sleep by two, so that I can be up by eight thirty to get ready for Skegness. The weather is a lot wetter than I would like. I've told Freda it would be better for me if we foubd a camp site before I drop her off at her friends, that way I can have some assistance in putting the tent up for the first time!
Husain is in London until Sunday. Freda says he's gone with his gay friends - Husaun is still vigorously deniing he is gay, even though her gay friend Pete has told her that he has had sex with Husain, along with several others. He's still telling Freda he wants to get married and have children. Must admit i'm not feeling to receptive towards Freda. She's exhibiting her usual selfish manner. All conversations must revolve around her, or be entertaining to her. I cannot 'use' her to get everyday things out of My system, she's just doesn't engage at all, makes it quite clear she isn't really iinterested - I must say though she's always been the same - but I feel at times it is the seed of the end of our friendship - just when that seed will germinate i'm not sure, sometimes I feel it is very near to hand, and then it seem's o recede, but it, i'm sure cannot be held back for ever. Maybe with the right effort it can be transformed into something more positive.
Oh yes, I won ?10 on the lottery on Wednesday, my first win for some time, apparently one person has won the ?19 millions but has not yet come forward. I put ?3 on tonights Euro lottery, first time i've tried that one.
I'm getting increasingly annoyed with Radio,5 then past two days, almost non stop coverage of The Open, and in a months time it will be the bloody Olympics - roll on the winter.
Oh yes, as I thought, Sion Jenkins won his murder appeal, but will face a re trial -,he hasn't been given bail - still reckon he will be aquitted.
Quite looking forward to a long walk along the coast tomorrow, reckon I should be set up by four o'clock.
It's 22:40 - five minutes to go, i've gone all shift and done virtually nothing!- making the most of it, doesn't happen that often.
DP was telling me he's dropping his family off in London tomorrow for a weeks stay wuth his relatives, he's retuning tomorrow evening.
.2004-07-25 15:14:26 (GMT)
Past Week
Diary Notes
Monday 19th
Didn't have time to include my weekend activities in the last post, so I?ll catch up now. Saturday I went to B&Q bought a lump hammer for the tent, did some shopping at Tesco's and picked Freda up about 10? 45 - left straight away for Skegness, arriving about 14:00. Managed to find the caravan site were Freda's friends were, and I left immediately to head north in search of a camp site near the sea. I passed through Cleethorpes, where it started to rain, and pushed on, but didn't see a single sign for a camp site, at least near to the shore. There were plenty of caravan sites but no campsite. By 16:00, to my surprise I was approaching the Humber Bridge! With the then, torrential rain, and still the absence of a camp site, I decided to call it a day. So I crossed the Humber, at a cost of ?2.50, and headed south on the M18 / M1, and arrived at Bradgate Park, about 18:15. By this time the weather was quite stunning, moist, but the countryside was that beautiful luscious green. I had a quick, word with my favourite tree, and was home just after 19:00. By eight Peggy and I were in the Westcotes, where we had a pleasant evening with the usual crowd, spending most of the time talking to Arthur. He seems to find my company convivial, which I often feel I don't deserve, but I do enjoy spending an evening in his company.
Sunday saw me setting out -again to Skegi, to pick Freda up. We arrived about noon, parking on a car park, at the far south of the town. Changed into my walking boots and with back pack, set off along the beach in a southerly direction. This proved to, be the high light of my weekend, I would go so far as to say; it made all the running around worth while. Within 15 - 20 minutes we found ourselves on a huge beach, with hardly any other sign of anybody. After walking for about an hour and twenty minutes it felt like I was on a desert island. Scanning in all directions with my binoculars, I could only see the odd sign of human activity. The occasional power boat on the horizon, or the sight of a man digging just in from the surf, it really was quite wonderful. At this point I thought I would have arrived at the next village or town, but this was not so, although I could see a few more people [maybe a dozen at most] further ahead. I then headed to the scrub, up from the beach and began heading back. This again was enlightenment for me, quite wonderful. I quickly realised that if I had known about this location previously, and had a one man tent I could have quite happily spent the night there, I'm sure no one would have seen me - no doubt camping is prohibited!! A little further on I came across two signs, and realised that I had in fact been walking through the Gibraltar Point nature reserve. The sign said all dogs should be kept on a lead; Peggy treated this with the same contempt as I did! After arriving back at the van we went for an ice cream and something to eat - a jacket potato, followed by some Cockles and Prawn. At 15:40, we left to collect Freda, arriving at exactly four o'clock as arranged. The mobile home was quite impressive, but on a huge complex. These were being sold for between ?17000 and ?40000. I must admit, that following my discovery of Gibraltar Point I could be quite tempted by one of the homes, although I still don't like Skegness itself. Freda's friends said the total running costs amounted to about ?50 a week. They were also on mains gas. I think I?ll work out a feasibility plan over the next for to five years. We arrived back at Freda's just before seven. On the way she said that DP thinks she 'uses'' me. I replied that we
all know that. She was quite taken aback, by this, saying I knew she'd do anything for me. I didn't push the issue, but clearly this is not so. She is totally disinterested in anything that goes on in my life, unless it has entertainment value to her. I tell her I have to attend hospital for tests; there is not the slightest inquiry or interest shown. I feel this will come out in the open more fully in the near future, and therein lies the seed of the possible end if our friendship, although of course she could take it on board and make some amends, but I won't hold my breath. Again she hasn't called me since I dropped her off, yet soon after we left Skegness she was texting her friends thanking them profusely for a good time., As usual, she did offer to pay for the fuel, but it was said in a manner that she really didn't mean it. She gave me a pair of Indian slippers for taking her., I have a feeling she will be even more distant with me in the coming weeks, since she won't be needing my ear, due to the fact she has so much coming up involving her other friends. It is also very obvious how she engages I conversations with her other friends, in a totally different manner to me. She actually asks questions and engages with them. Maybe it is a back handed compliment that she feels so at ease with me after all these years that she doesn't feel the need to put any effort into engaging in a normal manner with me? I have often told her she's very selfish, and I see no cause to alter that view. The obvious question is, why do I put up with it? I obviously like her, and I have to an extent always felt she provided an element of female contact that would confirm to, me that I still have the ability to converse and interact with the opposite sex, so I guess in a way I have used her, but isn't that the way of most relationships? I think, there has to be some balance though, and how relationship doesn't have that.
Peggy was ill when I got back, she has the runs! She stood near Dave's door, I now realise she wanted to go down to the factory to do her buiss. During the night she woke me up to go outside, and she has been struggling all day. Managed too take her in the pub at lunch time to see Barry, and when I finished at about 16:45, I bought her a couple of worming tablets., She only has to, take one, which I got down her at the second attempt. By secreting it in a Cumberland sausage. This evening {Monday] when I took her out she just did a pee, so that I hope is a good sign, can't wait to see how she is in the morning, I do feel very fondly towards her, she brings a lot of light into my life.
Went to Vertis Wigston, Monday afternoon, I gather Hollis, the 'cow' on reception is leaving today, I didn't make any comment, although I did inform Roadrunners, Jo? She said they were aware of it, and also referred to her as a 'cow', saying they hadn't sent her a card or anything.
Didn't feel to good myself Monday afternoon. About 16:00, I felt very light headed, felt like my head was buzzing, seem to have a recollection of feeling like that before, but that may have been when I took too much Ventolin, that's not the cause this time, since I haven't been taking any. The feeling wore mostly wore off after about 20 - 30 minutes, but even now, some twelve hours later my head doesn't feel totally right. I feel a slight trembling sensation at times in my arm and hands. May try some Anadin's when I get home, or before if I can, it's now 04:57.
Tonight at Walkers I heard from, Ian that John Ives intends coming onto, nights to do the first couple of Optimisation assessments. which I?m not very happy about since I'm sure Greg will try again to get me to be one of the first one's. At least he's off most of the next two weeks, although I understand he will be in to do some briefings tomorrow night [Tuesday] I heard from Jo Green last Friday that Greg had failed to get the job at Cadbury?s he'd applied for, but has bee offered a lesser position and I heard from Ian tonight that he's going to spend a day at Cadbury's before making up his mind.
Lol is in the canteen for another week and Sue is still on the sick, as is Phil still and Pete Horn.
Tonight was the first night I saw the new Process Information board, apparently it went up at the weekend.
About 02:35 I saw someone being carried to the fist aid room by about four people, George was one, but I don't know who it was, or how serious, probably hear later.
All the lines are off at 06:00 for briefings, think we get the same tonight.
Tuesday 20th 23:15 - Line 1 plate stand. Arrived five minutes late tonight - forgot my swipe card and had to go back from Anstey Lane. Should have been some briefings at ten, but were cancelled, heard someone forgot to tell Greg who, came in off holiday!
Had a very easy day today, only did two Flo Gas jobs. I let Peggy throw a sickie on the second run, she still isn't right, although she seemed quite perky tonight, but I'm not sure she can pass her movements ok, still seems to be having difficulties, hope she hasn't got a blockade, she was crunching some shells on the beach on Sunday.
It's a week tomorrow since I took Haley to Norwich, seems less than that.
I didn't see Freda when she came in this morning, and I?ve had no phone calls from her, I suspect she is feeling miffed about me agreeing that she uses me - which she does, and if she raises the point again I will say the same thing, with possibly more depth!
Spoke briefly to the woman covering Sue in the canteen, said she works in a LOROS shop during the day, and is doing a teaching course. She intends moving to South America, Argentina first, in about three month?s time. Very pleasant, the kind of person who lights up the area with her presence, unlike Lol who is also back this week!
Aide Allen, told me earlier that he has just been to Majorca, and that Eric will be coming back in November.
04:42 - Feeling quite tired, even though I had a lot more sleep yesterday than normal. Hope I can get at least a couple of hours in when I get home.
Have been planning my next three weekends! Think I may go to Derbyshire this weekend. Next weekend I really should devote to reviewing the Optimisation work, and the following week I?m taking Arthur to Blackpool where I might eventually get to try my tent out! Beginning to think the summer is rapidly slipping by. There are only six weeks left until September, which really will mean the end of summer, but then there are the delights of autumn, so long as it doesn't rain too much. I guess one of the negative things is the shorter days, will have to plan my weekend s more precisely then. I still haven't decided to take any holiday yet; I keep feeling I can go on a bit longer. If I miss the summer though I will probably end up staying at home. I think Battu and Satnam are going to India in the autumn which would rule out any holiday option then.
I think Battu and Satnam have applied for the MT's roles on the new snax line. I didn't bother, have big doubts about how successful it will prove to be, in twelve months time I would expect it to be only running a couple of days a week, at most.
05:42 - Just finished the last plate, quite gritty tonight, running on 1953's. I think these military ear defenders are giving me headaches, due to the tightness of the band, going to try them under my cap for a while.
I wonder if Freda will show her self this morning. Wouldn't be surprised since she might feel a bit guilty about avoiding me so soon after taking her to Skegness, but then again, guilt is an emotion she can quickly get over, as I have observed on many occasions. 05:49 - Looking forward to seeing Peggy, hope she's ok today, don't want to have to take her to the vet.
05:51 - more later ----
Wednesday 21st 22:17 - Line one plate stand. - Freda did indeed make a point of approaching me at 06:00 this morning near to line 5. She seemed quite chatty, even gave me a small laminated print out of the KPI's. She said her friend, Josi had rheumatism, but wasn't sure which kind, she said she was thinking of buying her an Indian Copper bangle, I said a decent one might be fairly expensive, at which she seemed to go off the idea a bit, she also said she was thinking of coming onto nights next week.
The weather has been warm today, some cloud and rain, but quite nice. Had a sleep this morning before Roadrunners called just before ten, with a Vertis Wigston run to Milton Keynes, they then called about thirty minutes later with a KPMG job to, St Albans. I actually finished the second drop at about 12:40, but calked it in at one. Nice place, St Albans, must bear it in mind for a visit one day. On my way back I passed two motorway accidents, one south bound near Milton Keynes, and the other, not so serious north bound just near the Lutterworth junction. When I got back, just after three I got back off to, sleep, but Roadrunners called again about 16:15. I said I was baby sitting this evening so could only do a quick job, as it turned out it was just a Benchmark job to Thales defence on Scudamore Road, I was back home just after five, and asleep again by about six thirty. Peggy I think is getting better, she seems almost her old self, but is still struggling with her motions, although she doesn't appear to have the 'runs' any more, if anything she is constipated, hope she hasn't got a blockage. She is eating ok, and drinking plenty of water. I bought her some Children Nuggets from a KFC this afternoon; I had a Chicken Salad, but then made the mistake of having some Spaghetti and Mackerel, with additional Olive Oil! I think there was too much oil, haven't felt right since, and experienced some bad acid bile in my throat just before nine this evening, still don't feel to good, but sure it will, pass over the next few hours. Peggy made a big fuss of Dave and Judith this evening, she recognized them from quite a long way up the street. Steph and the kiddies should be in Wales camping by now. Like she said last week, she doesn't get any holidays. She keeps saying she will pay me back ?500 of the ?1000 she owes me, I have told her several times I would be happy for her to keep it and never mention it again, but knowing how stubborn she can be I guess she will pay me back. I guess I could give it back to the kids in the form of Christmas and birthday presents? Its 22:53 I?ve only seen Satnam so far tonight, Greg is on holiday, hopefully for the remainder of this week and next week. DP is also off next week. The woman in Tesco's who was going to immigrate to Canada now says she is going to remain here although she is going for a visit soon. Said she bought a ticket on the net for ?300.
JJ has made his first posting following last weekends Gathering, sounds like it was a big success, don't think I would have liked the Karaoke though!
Just been on first break, eleven to eleven thirty, DP relieving, looks like I have a flavour change at one o'clock. Geoff Marsden is back from his holiday to Yarmouth, although he says he may be off tomorrow in order to attend some Wonderware training on Friday, ready for it's installation on line one at the weekend. Seems that Trevor hasn't turned in tonight.
Managed to read a further couple of pages from the Secret Doctrine, the more I read, the more fascinating I find it, I really should take more notes and study it as well as possible. I always put it down feeling up lifted. Maybe it will be this study that will result in my striving on to new, in depth understandings?
The main uk news story today is the sad case of four people having been murdered last weekend in North Yorkshire, Police are hunting a named suspect, sad to, think those people were alive just a week ago. Two women were arrested today but the main suspect is still at large. Going on past remembrances of similar cases I would expect him to be caught within the next forty eight hours. Not many people these days, who find themselves in such a situation, have the ability to live off the land, or have contacts that would keep quiet and support them, they often get caught during the night, and I wouldn't be surprised to hear he had been caught tonight. Such a waste.
Today also saw the last PMQ's before the recess. Blair seemed to win easily to me. He seems to have renewed his vigour the past few weeks, and Howard seems to have lost his touch. I'm sure he will bounce back, but I?m also sure this time next year we will have a new Labour Government with a majority only slightly less than they have now. UKIP will no doubt split the 'right' vote. Trouble if Labour gets another large majority they could be in line to win the election after that, by which time they will have made changes that could take many years to reverse. One thing that could change the political landscape is the referendum on Europe, which won't take place until after the election, this surely Labour will loose. It may spur the Tories into accommodating more closely the ideas of UKIP, although sadly I can't see this happening this side of the election.
01:14- Got a flavour change in a few minutes. Feeling a Bit better, but still not 100% yet, will have to be careful about how much Olive Oil I have from, now on!
Lance Armstrong won the time trial in the mountains today, and is all but certain to win the sixth consecutive Tour de France.
03:43 - Still not feeling right, probably best not to eat anything else until this afternoon, just had a Bounty ice cream tonight which wasn't a good idea. I increasingly get quite a strong impression lately that I should not only pay attention to, what I eat, but also to what mixture of things I eat at or near the same time. I feel I should be aware of what is in my stomach, and at times be prepared to let what is there digest, before adding more to it! Think I am being told something here!
I've heard line one is off for the remainder of the week from ten o'clock tonight, which might mean I get stuck with the boil out, just realised it was done last week, so should be ok there, and I think there may be a briefing tonight.
Thursday, today now, see's the start of the first day of the first test against the West Indies. My forecast is one match all, and one drawn due to the weather, assuming it is a three test series.
In some ways I?m quite looking forward to the autumn, not a un pleasant season, so long as it doesn't rain too much. I still have it in my mind to complete the bulk of my Christmas shopping before the end of September. I always leave it too late, and I then find it quite stressful. Can't make my mind up on whether to book a weeks holiday from Walker's at Christmas, Might be a good idea, since I would in fact get nearly two weeks off.
04::37 - Just returned from, last break, feeling quite tired, will be ok after a short sleep.
Thursday 22nd One of the hardest, physically I?ve had with Roadrunners. Had two Odd Bins jobs this morning, one to Quorn, and forty boxes to the Law Department, at the DeMontfort University. Took me over an hour to unload, even with the use of their barrow. Had to take them up in a lift, and then up a further flight of stairs. I arrived just after eleven, and didn't leave until about twelve fifteen. I then did the Merry Lees job, and late afternoon I did a Wigston to Capital One. I actually managed to get enough sleep. About five hours in all.
Tonight I?m cleaning the wash tanks on line one, and George has just told me I?m stock loading Friday. There is only line four running today and tomorrow. [Line one went of at 22:00 for the remainder of the week]
Just attended a briefing by Bryan Pearson and Mo Rai, which revolved around how much Asbestos is present, mainly in the plastic walls, at Bursom. Looks like they have known about it since at least 1999, and have now decided to remove it all due to the high cost of monitoring it. Removal and replacement is estimated to cost ?300,000. Walker's are giving out some freebies this morning, something else I will give a miss to.
Thursday afternoon saw quite a heavy thunder storm in Leicster. Just started as I was finishing about 16:50, it put Peggy of her dinner! She seems to be quite a bit better now, and her 'movements?, are of less concern.
Have been thinking tonight again of going in for an Orange 3g data card, they were launched last Monday. Will have to work on the pro's and cons. If I bought one I wouldn't be likely to go for a Broadband connection so quickly.
05:15 - in the canteen, think I?ve done enough to be finished. Reading some more Secret Doctrine, quite riveting.
Friday 23rd Roadrunners called at 09:45, but when I went out I found a note on the window from Dave saying I had a nail in my front off side tyre. When ii tried to prise it out I could hear air escaping, so I pushed it back in, cancelled the Roadrunners job and drove down to Kwik Fit. They repaired it in about twenty minutes, and I was back on the road. Cost me ?10, they said new one's are about ?85, due to having to be reinforced, something I should be aware of in the not to distant future. Weather was very good today, warm and sunny, even managed to get in fifteen minutes at the lakes near to Geoff's house. Peggy seems quite happy with herself now. I've been on stock loading tonight with Adie Allen. It's now 21:|| my line went off over half an hour ago, I assume most are now cleaning, but I was due for a break, so I?m not rushing back to volunteer. Bryan Payne came in about five minutes ago, but didn't say anything to me; I?ll have a look in another ten minutes or so! Freda 'might' be upset with me. She came in the canteen just after six this morning, said she was getting a drink; I waited a couple of minutes and went to get changed. When I got back to the canteen she was gone. Don't expect to hear from her until next week, she will be busy this weekend with the visit of her friend Paul.
Just had a wander round, looks like most of the cleaning is completed, gave Battu a hand for a couple of minutes on line four cooker.
Heard the other day from, I think Geoff that Bryan Pearson had applied for a job at one of the super markets.
Brenda has asked me if I can contact Stewart to see if he wants to go out with her and Theresa on August 7th. Said I would try to contact him, but not sure if I want to just yet. I assume Pam Withers may be going to, assuming she is still here then. I don't fancy it, and anyway I will be at Blackpool that weekend.
Roadrunners called me as I was walking in about five, they have a couple of jobs for me to do early Monday morning.
Saturday 24th
Quite a good day today. Got up a bit late, about 10:00, but then went to the Orange Shop at Fosse Park, to see about a 3G card for the lap top. Managed to get one, and it actually set up, and worked quite well. Tried it in the Westcotes last night, again seemed to work quite well.
Had a good walk in the afternoon, went along he canal and ended up just past Soar Valley Way. Took me about an hour and a quarter each way, so I assume I walked about six miles in all. Tried to call Steph in Wales, but I just got the answer service.
Arthur didn?t turn up in the Wescotes, neither did Fred, hope they are both ok. Checked Charlies flight details for Christmas whilst I was there.
Sunday 25th
Woke up quite early, just watched some TV, then went up to Tesco Hamilton, joined the RAC, cost me about ?135?, the woman is to call me later to get the bank details.
Quite cloudy and showery today, its 16:03 ? can?t see me going for a long walk today! Saw Barry and Charlie in the CN at lunchtime. Have just set up a sync to the Orange site, that?s three I?ve established now!
Freda called me yesterday, to apologise for not getting back to me in the canteen on Friday morning, she said she had sat with Mukesh and forgotten all about me ? and I thought she would be up set with me for not waiting for her! Didn?t tell her I hadn?t waited long. She was going out to a gay bar last night with her friend Lyn and Pete, don?t know if Husain was going? Seems Husains friend, Phillip has been ?bedded? by Pete! ? sounds quite complicated to me!
The coming week doesn?t seem to have any major problems in it, the Colonnade issue is still out standing, and there is the Optimisation assessment rapidly coming up, hope to put that off for a further three or four weeks, haven?t had time to revise it yet, should be doing it today, but my heart just isn?t in it.
Roadrunners called about an hour ago, to say the first job they gave me from the Royal in the morning has been cancelled, but I still have to go to Birmingham to collect the Big Issue.
16:10 ? Just going to post this, check the electricity reading, and then chill out. Weather forecast for the next few days, is to become warm and sunny.
